The strange feeling that is graduation

It has been a weird week for me this week. I have entered into a strange transition, from dependance to independance.

In a few months time I will have moved from relying on family generosity as I get through uni, to being able to support a reasonable standard of living on my own (if I want to go that way).

In the meantime, it is a sad day. A lot of the ways in which I had come to serve my Lord and put his kingdom first are now needing to be done differently.

The wait for work is going to be potentially frustrating, but I am lucky to be blessed with a job already.

The worst feeling is not knowing what I should be putting my energy towards. I have downsized lots of stuff so that I can focus properly on work next year.

Oh well, I wonder what life will be like after Christmas. Who really knows... in a bit over a week I will be on a well deserved holiday... and I will be loving it.

The distractions that bind...

I have noticed in myself a slightly frustrating tendency, though it is one that had been noticed many times before, by me and also others.

The natural human response expressed in me (and possibly a sinful one) is to desire certainty in all sorts of situations. The goldy response (I think) is rather to simply keep trusting God's timing on all things.

Our God is a good God, who has given us his good word, he promises to look after his people. I just need to trust him as I make decisions to keep serving him into the future.